What a topic to touch on. Lately, I've been having so many conversations about this that I felt the need to speak about it and also, a friend of mine recommended it. This generation speaking about feelings is like whoa, pump your brakes. While it is normal to feel, duh! We're human. It's such a vulnerable subject. Especially for men, I love how my male friends have been so open about their feelings lately in life. Sometimes I'm taken back by them actually feeling comfortable to speak about their feelings on anything.
Feelings is just a state of consciousness. The shit comes in waves, sometimes things evoke irrational emotions, have you in your bag about things that is not even going to matter a week from now, month, a year from now. In urban terms saying in your bag is just another word for in your feelings. This act of feeling can be a gift and a curse. There's two ways this thing can go, either super emotional or balanced. To experience feelings period you need to care about whatever it is you're involved in. No shit? right.
Over the pass maybe two months I've had chats that literally ended up on the topic of feelings, I'm on the other hand like wtf .. universe are you trying to tell me something? why is this topic at the core of every conversation. Anyways, thats neither here or there ... I realized after talking to male friends that being as openly expressive as I am isn't a bad thing. Sometimes hearing from a male friend that their working on expressing themselves more, being more open, honest, leaves your mouth agape but, noneless helps to remind me .. we all are human.
Being in a state of numbness is cool for a little until you realize you don't feel anything at all. How wack is that? This idea of being a way that you're really not? Cold ass heart. I mean, ice cold. To me, I don't know how I did it for so long. Sometimes we experience things we don't want to happen, like a break - up with a person we made plans to spend our lifetime with. Shit happens. That kind of situation will turn a generally warm, loving, caring person .. into a complete asshole. While life always comes around full circle and karma is an evil bitch .. remember this in the time of coldness there's always someone who will pop up in your life as a distraction that may end up being exactly what you may have needed to get back to a warmer place.
Feelings can bring a ton of fear .. fear of something not panning out the way we expect, fear of it being everything we wanted plus more, fear of not being "ready", fear of being vulnerable, fear of another person knowing and possibly understanding you. So many fears not enough flowing. I called one of my good friends up and asked his thoughts on feelings, I interrupted his game and everything (thanks homie) you the real MVP. He responded "we have feelings about everything, we have a ton of expectations once feelings are involved and nothing puts us more into our feelings than listening to music" He then said, go listen to your favorite right now .. which is SZA,Sabrina Claudio and H.E.R these ladies need to have a concert so I can attend and be the back up dancer lol jk. On a serious note we were on the phone shooting the breeze for a good hour and half about just "FEELINGS".
I would never think in a million years that we would have so much to say about the subject, I needed a different perspective to view this subject on. I wanted to see this topic from not only my experience but, from others as well. What I gained from my conversation was that feelings can be tricky, have you questioning things for no apparent reason, sometimes thinking too far and not enjoying the now *raises hand, I'm so guilty of this* and also, misplacing how you feel based on things you haven't let go of. Sometimes we have to shed our past in order to come into something new, if we haven't mastered that yet .. we will carry that person with us into something new.
Lastly, always speak your truth and don't go to bed upset .. sometimes people hold back how they really feel in order to make others feel comfortable. Tomorrow is not promised, mean what you say and say what you feel. At the end of the day, what's the worst that can happen? besides someone not feeling the same as you. If that is the case, thats okay too. Keep it pushing .. at least you can sleep better at night knowing that there's nothing on your heart.
"feelings can be seasonal or for a lifetime, its whether or not we open our heart to it"
As always we lots of love and of course bubbly